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Artist Name

Alex Wintersmith Lackey

Genres

Alternative, Blues, Melodic, Rock, Singer/Songwriter

Location

SLC, UT, United States

Biography

Biography

I am a self-taught multi-instrumentalist singer/songwriter who has been playing in bands across genres and instruments for a decade plus. I started writing music when I was 15 but have kept it close to my chest due to insecurities with being vulnerable. After going through a tough few years personally, I made some drastic life changes which led to an album being written in reflection over my experiences. “Of Ash and Soot” is abstractly themed around mental health and substance abuse struggles I faced. I am the sole writer and performer on the record which was recorded with Terrance DH at Counterpoint Studios over about 12 hours.

Discography

“Of Ash and Soot” – 2020

Lyric Sheet

Guarded, Locked, and Trapped

 

I’ve been feeling somewhat strange

But I’m coming back alive, down low

And the looks are all the same

Painted strangers like my dreams, where I know

 

That I ain’t got nowhere left to go

And I’m spinning out again

Won’t you come around my friend

 

A familiar exchange

And love’s got a hold on me, let it end

Looking out over lifeless sea

The ripples verge on loveless waves once again

 

But I ain’t got nowhere left to go

Feeling swept along way down the road, pull me in

And a stranger now I’ve been before

A load of cracked old numbered locks ignored

 

Hold my hand now darling don’t let me fade

I see the fire raging it lacks my shame

As smoke begins to call me by my name

Take me down along the water it’s all the same

 

You’re not a rival heart to me

But it’s guarded, locked, and trapped inside

Golden silhouettes I see

I fear it’s all crumbling to dust before my eyes

 

But you ain’t got nowhere left to go

A bitter wind like ghosts coming far too close my friend

The cold laid out and I feel it too

A holy calm I see inside of you

 

Hold my hand now darling don’t let me fade

I see the fire raging it lacks my shame

As smoke begins to call me by my name

Take me down along the water it’s all the same

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Haunted

 

There was something you said

But I can’t ask you again

To lay it down and let me in

While I drift on and on

But forever’s too brief

And please, don’t you ask me again

To belong as a friend

When you’re letting me go

 

So please throw me a line while I long

Feels like it’s pulling too strong

I forgot what you sang in that song

 

Euridyce please

Won’t you lead me down

Promise I won’t turn around

‘Til the light blend with the sound

A lyre inside I hold

But my feet touch the ground

Allow me to hold what surrounds

As if all around I allow

 

So please throw me a line while I long

Feels like it’s pulling too strong

I forgot what you sang in that song

That the breeze comes over too slow

I’m alright in the grass ‘cause I know

The soil from which we grow follows

 

Now the past drifts into your eyes

Haunted by the lights as they rise

Above what’s realized

But no more a fool that I could ever be

Haunted by a dream as I slip

Away from broken streams

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Once Before

 

I’ve said it once before, my heart is too along

Been stumblin’ through this road of mine that’s paved in cobbled stone

But I need you here tonight, help unleash my holy ghost

I need a hand to hold my soul up, that’s what I need most

Finally you know that you don’t have to go

I hope you feel my heartbeat, that it’s not turned to stone

But if it has been so, light a fire that burns it slow

I’ve got a dollar you can spend so I don’t spend it alone

 

Walking ‘round on Bryan street, I ain’t got no chance to leave

Feeling weight of all the hurt that I’ve caused no chance of sweet relief

But I need the circular sense of reality that’s cursed

I’ve got some love that I hold on to, the smoke is always worse

When it burns under my eyes, and it ain’t no big surprise

‘Cause it follows wherever I go but it’s hard to realize

That is sums me up to size, take away my haunting lies

I’ll let it go when I get home so I can fantasize

 

And it’s thoughts like this that break me

Spin me ‘round pick me up and shake me

I’ve got life and I ain’t complaining 

I’ll cradle up and it might just save me

 

I’ve said it once before, my heart is too alone

Feel colors fade and feelings swell to a land of great unknown

And metaphorically I wish that I could see 

But I like this more, unlock my door and throw away the key

But I’ve got you in my sight, take away this blinding light

I’d like to see your smiling face black-lit by stars tonight

I’ll eat up all my pride, let you dive down deep inside

‘Cause I ain’t got no more good reasons, none more left to hide

 

And it’s thoughts like this that break me

Spin me ‘round pick me up and shake me

I’ve got life and I ain’t complaining 

I’ll cradle up and it might just save me

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

As Cain Was to Abel

 

Biting my tongue it’s all raw from this song

And it’s running right away from me

But everything all at once breaking waves as they come

I find it hard to even find a key

Now all I need is some relief peering cold and obscene

It goes as fast as it colors my dreams

I’m slipping farther away another break in my day

I’ll crash sometimes and it’s smoking like me

 

But I’ll hold on I see you need some kind of a change

And I said I’d burn the book but it broke my heart to hear you explain

 

As Cain was to Abel I’m a form of a slave

My life’s been tossed around like I didn’t care

And I’d roll right on believing holding tight to misconceiving

A sentence served as I light it and stare

Translucent gripping air a feeling caught and domineered

I find it hard to step out of this dream

But unrelated is the truth and it’s ashing and bruised

Find me waiting right beside what I need

 

But I’ll hold on I see you need some kind of a change

And I said I’d burn the book but it broke my heart to hear you explain

I felt it in your voice and it felt like mine was shaking the same

The cards are faded on the table turned to fables but you’re calling my name

 

And I keep holding on but sometimes it’s just the smell of the rain

That burns the pages torn and it broke my heart to see you this way

I crumbled in your hands through your fingers but I never was whole

The table is turned showing cards they don’t look right but your calling my name

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dripping Flames

 

So alone, come on tell me where you’re going

I once thought, but that was so far from what I was showing

I guess I don’t blame you for what you’re doing

Won’t you please leave the tracks since now it’s snowing

 

But we never lined up like we hoped

That’s my fault I guess now I know

I couldn’t love you the way I wished I could

Broken withdrawn, I guess it was all just smoke

 

You said something but I could not relate

Broken bottles remnants of my latest escape

Could you hold me know since I’ve come undone

I was hoping we weren’t there yet but now you’re gone

 

But we never lined up like we hoped

That’s my fault I guess now I know

I couldn’t love you the way I wished I could

Broken withdrawn, I guess it was all just smoke

 

Since it’s all crumbled down to stones

Walk with me by blazing embers alone

Breaking the orbit I’ve gone too far to come home

 

But we never lined up like we hoped

That’s my fault I guess now I know

I couldn’t love you the way I wished I could

Broken withdrawn, I guess it was all just smoke

And I was dreaming just the other day

That your blue eyes were dripping flames

But I think I knew then what I somewhat know now

I just couldn’t love you I wish I knew how

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ghost Town

 

This heart I’m running to breaks through this stone

I’ve let go of it all except my bones

So let it sail away it’s breaking waves I’d say, I’m home

If it only made some sense I’d write it down

And less a fool I’d be to make no sound

But I’ll keep the orbit straight as long as you orchestrate aloud

 

I feel for once it’s not something longed

Not something haunting and pulling me along

You’ll break out that heart and I’ll sing a song

It’s lifting me up to where I belong

 

Floating ‘round eternity it’s always been

Etched dark in stone yet washed away with the wind

I clutch to all I see yet let it drift through my dreams and it won’t end

 

I feel for once it’s not something longed

Not something haunting and pulling me along

You’ll break out that heart and I’ll sing a song

It’s lifting me up to where I belong

Now I feel it all, it all at once

Build up inside, in line for so long

I’ll set me free, I’ll say I tried

Spin out again, I swear to god I never lied, but that’s a lie I’ve let survive

 

Reflecting through stained glass, a shattered scale

I’ve been worse off since fighting tooth and nail

Roll out my fated plans, I’ll hand them to the wind but I’ll fail

This heart i’m running to breaks through this stone

I’ve let go of it all except my bones

But that was all a dream run by my clock it seems, and I’m alone

 

I feel for once it’s not something longed

Not something haunting and pulling me along

You’ll break out that heart and I’ll sing a song

It’s lifting me up to where I belong

Now I feel it all, it all at once

Build up inside, in line for so long

I’ll set me free, I’ll say I tried

Spin out again, I swear to god I never lied, but that’s a lie I’ve let survive

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lopsided Heart

 

I couldn’t bring myself to ask for forgiveness

Or allow myself strength to carry on

But after the smoke clears I’ll find my way back

The simplest form I’ll write in this song

Strike me down my friend I’ve got too much to say

A lopsided heart I hold in my chest

But after the wind dies let it echo in the hall

Find me gazing like the rest

 

Please ignore my mind it’s far too loud now

There’s no other way you’ll come around

All I ever wanted was all I’ve ever seen

Singular rationale it seems

 

Darkness feels like it’s lurking ‘round every corner

A comforting friendship I still hold

And nevermind that I call him by his first name

I’ll send him out into that cold

 

Please ignore my mind it’s far too loud now

There’s no other way you’ll come around

All I ever wanted was all I’ve ever seen

Singular rationale it seems

 

And how can it be that everything fades

But leaves a trace out of sight

And how can it be that I’m no longer doubtful

That nothing ever dies, ever dies

 

Please help me I’m blind it’s far too cloudy now

The air is so damp and full of sound

All I ever wanted was all I’ve ever seen

A singular rationale it seems

All I ever wanted was someone to believe

And sing all these love songs to me

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Abstraction

 

My desired eloquence is driven by atmosphere

Anxious to round a square

And a fiend for all at once, a timid galiance I hold

But still I’m never there

 

I’ve been striking fires but I never seemed to like them

A reservoir that cracks and starts the flood

Ritualize the act I only wish that I could

 

As the conflict deepens I’m a fool for all I see

Guarded locked and I’m trapped, I no longer seem to need

All I want is to open, bleed as freely as the sea

But I’m haunted by all, loved and free I’ll never be

 

Unadulterated dreams, I’m a fool to think I’m whole

Ever lurking around my soul

Engulfed in the violent void I’ve got a gorgeous tragedy

All I want but unable to be

 

The lights are out but the desperate fuse is lost now

Abstracted by my loneliness to cling

Ideals pulled by the thoughts I wished that I’d sing

 

As the divide creeps in, I’m in love with all I see

Guarded locked and I’m trapped, I can never find the key

All I need is to frequent, thunder seems to stop the bleed

But I’m still haunted by all, loved and free I’ll always be

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Rawlins to Laramie

 

Thought I’d sail all my worries on down the road

But it’s a cowboy land I’ve always been told

I guess they knew it was all too good to be

And now I’m stalled out in that Wyo cold

I’m drinking bottle by bottle held up in that square

A femme fatal I dragged through my despair

I thought those demons were all now dead and gone

But now they cling to me as they steal my air

 

It was Rawlins to Laramie

For the sake of life I just can’t see

And both the angels and demons reach out for me

And now I’m rollin’ down the road to Laramie

 

Disillusioned, broken, raw and I’m on my way

Engulfed in drowning my shame I’ll tuck it all away

Visions of it all bleed into my soul

But alas you’re much too far away

Gravity pulls me back to life

And I’m haunted by why I can’t see light

The devil’s knocking down doors screaming let me in

I guess he made some new points and now he’s here tonight

 

So it’s out the door to see my Irish friend

She lives across the lot, a pseudo Tucky grin

And I’ll crawl if I have to there’s too much pain

I see Atlantis now won’t you take me in

 

Living bottle by bottle a rattle at my door

A saving grace I’m bathed in a loving glow

But all I can do is just bury my head

I’ve been imploding so long I’m buried in the snow

Now step by step and cry after cry

I look around but it’s hazy and I can’t see why

I’m so convinced to end up dead and gone

But I’ll breathe it all out into that sunburnt sky

 

It was Rawlins to Laramie

I pulled the curtains ‘cross my eyes so I just wouldn’t see

And both the angels and demons reach out for me

But now I’m rolling down the road to SLC

So it’s out the door to take one hard look

I lived in motionless fire not left unshook

And I’ll crawl if I have to there’s too much pain

I’ll don a cloak of fear and rise out of ash and soot

 

But it was Rawlins to Laramie

Where I’d find a love, I just couldn’t see

And Broken bottle by bottle I shattered by heart

But I stumbled down the road back to SLC